In the next six months, I will be turning 25, something I jokingly refer to as an ancient age, because it will be making me a quarter of a century old. A lot has happened in these near three decades. I grew from a small kid( physically and metaphorically speaking) to a tall, strapping man, exactly like a bamboo plant and one inch taller than it, they average at six feet. The books I have read ever since I was 13 and 4 reading levels ahead of my peers since school, I was reading Hemingway and vaguely glancing at William S Burroughs, they were stuck in the class assigned literature, that reading list has grown manifold, it still continues to grow, although iconoclastic, contumacious authors still catch my imagination, men that dare to speak up with panache and derring do.
It quite explains why many of my report cards in school have always described me as restless( I was reading all of them today) but always intelligent and alert, though if one were to ask me about my childhood and school life till grade 11, I would describe it as lonely, the proverbial black sheep that did not fit in at all, something I do not forget till date, although a lot of it is contextual and I was never offered to narrate my side of the story, not like people asked me either. But no it is not me playing the victim card, I despise that, it is pure, cold analysis of my life, because I know what happened the best.
Which is why I am glad for the year 2022, it was the year I chanced upon astrology and palmistry and jumped headfirst into it, making an actual living out of it, although I found out that I belong to at least 4 generations of astrologers on my mother’s side. I did do some corporate writing for a year but it did not go as per my expectations, beginner’s luck, I suppose you could call it.
No I do not think it is pseudo-science, nor do I like people who call it( I call them ignorant, because that is what they are) so without actually reading it in the right spirit, it provided a mirror to why I am the way I am and why others are, it has actually made me appreciate the human spirit and the circus of personality inordinately better than most self help books and psychology tests, 2 things I am not very fond of.
Here is to understanding ourselves, we have been given one life and we do not know when it will end, but until then, we all have a right to live it well and full. I do wish that someone told me that those school report card comments would not have carried some divine importance and I would have been much better today, but instead of lamenting the lack of knowledge, I cherish the enlightenment I have gotten today.
Om Namah Shivay!